this weather sucks. it's too cold to go out, too cold to even think about it in fact. the idea of staying in tonight doesn't do me though, so i may go to a party. i may change my mind about that too. very scattered thoughts today, accompanied by a ton of tension.

Eric leaves Monday, and Catie is tense. she's making ME tense, and being quite the pain in the ass. her mood swings are driving me insane, so i try to avoid confrontations with her, and have no problem with her spending most of her time in her room. i'm sure that will change once Eric leaves, and we'll be right back to the "why can't you stay home?" bullshit. it doesn't make a difference if i'm here or not really, because she'll be on the phone all the time, again. BUT, she wants me here. her control freak nature is getting on my nerves. i have earned the right to go out anytime i choose to, regardless of how guilty she makes me feel, period.

Scott gets under my skin, Duane is a complete ass and has zero business sense, Jason is a putz, and i've had just about enough of everyone.

maybe i should take a nap.

i need a new job. i love my job, but i don't love the owner. pretty sad that i haven't gotten paid from Friday because he used that money to go out drinking all week. he'll get his today though. i'm not playing this game. i'll be taking the fares from the next day or two to pay my own self, then i'll be taking my percentage each time i work from now on.

fire me. i dare you.

i'm bored today already. what to do, what to do..

so, we get to hear the baby's heartbeat this coming Thursday. i have to admit, i'm getting a little excited. now it's really real, and i've come to terms with it all. if she has twins though, i'll be leaving the country.

work has been a pain in my rear end the last few weeks, but now that we've fired the guy who was disrupting the flow, things should get a bit better. there was way too much stress involved, and i was getting quite fed up with being the sounding board for all the complaining, so whew.

the men in this town are nearly insane, but a source of entertainment. evidently if you tell someone they're cute, you're automatically dating. if, heaven forbid, you kiss any one of them, you're engaged. i won't even go further with this..lol

i am absolutely looking forward to having three straight days off. i may just go to bed and stay there until Monday.

so i went snowmobiling for the first time last friday. i thought i'd hate it, but nope. i LOVED it. at first my friend was going slow, around 35mph. we stopped at a bar to have coffee which is when i informed him he could go a little faster. on the way back he did, close to 60mph, and it was fantastic. of course i couldn't feel my chin for about 45 minutes after the fact and my hair looked like hell, but it was worth it. i almost fell off at one point because we hit a rut in the snow, and i was hanging on with one cheek..lol but i was able to scootch back on without incident. we're going again after the next snowfall.

i've been doing and trying so many more things lately. i'm not sure why, and i don't care why either, i'm just glad i am. at this rate i'll have to change the title of my blog! :D